Learning the sudden/not-so-sudden deaths of many around me breaks my heart seeing the loved ones who are left with the grieving process in despair.
Death does not recognise who, time, age and place. It is written from the 40th day we are conceived in our mummy's tummy. This sometimes freaks me out, not because I'm afraid of death although my 'amalan' is definitely not enough, but more afraid of how it would affect my babies and who would be able to take care of them, as of this point, the only person I trust is my mother and of course their father.
Although not a day goes by where I don't miss my dad *it's been 8 years* bt regardless I am thankful to have been given 21 years to know and love him.
And so everyday I wish, hope and pray to Allah that he grants my heroes and my mum a long life, good health, to be safe and to have a good future. Also, I pray the he grant me the strength, patience and good health so I can be their guardian, friend, mum and guide. If anything were ever to happen to me, I hope they would be able to find solace in this little journal /memoir that I-not-so frequently-update-but-am-trying-oh-so-hard. Know that mummy loves you both with all my life, heart and soul for just the way you are.
Death does not recognise who, time, age and place. It is written from the 40th day we are conceived in our mummy's tummy. This sometimes freaks me out, not because I'm afraid of death although my 'amalan' is definitely not enough, but more afraid of how it would affect my babies and who would be able to take care of them, as of this point, the only person I trust is my mother and of course their father.
Although not a day goes by where I don't miss my dad *it's been 8 years* bt regardless I am thankful to have been given 21 years to know and love him.
And so everyday I wish, hope and pray to Allah that he grants my heroes and my mum a long life, good health, to be safe and to have a good future. Also, I pray the he grant me the strength, patience and good health so I can be their guardian, friend, mum and guide. If anything were ever to happen to me, I hope they would be able to find solace in this little journal /memoir that I-not-so frequently-update-but-am-trying-oh-so-hard. Know that mummy loves you both with all my life, heart and soul for just the way you are.
Oh your eyes, your eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Your hair, your hair
Fits perfectly without your trying
You're so beautiful
And I tell you every day
Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment you
You wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think you don't see what I see
But every time you ask me do I look okay
I say
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause boys you're amazing
Just the way you are
Your nails, your toes, your hand
I could kiss them all day if you'd let me
Your laugh, your laugh
I think its so adorable
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Your hair, your hair
Fits perfectly without your trying
You're so beautiful
And I tell you every day
Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment you
You wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think you don't see what I see
But every time you ask me do I look okay
I say
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause boys you're amazing
Just the way you are
Your nails, your toes, your hand
I could kiss them all day if you'd let me
Your laugh, your laugh
I think its so adorable
You're so beautiful
Love,
Mummy
Mummy
4 comments:
InsyaAllah...
P, i know how you feel. I have those period of times where I keep thinking about deaths and the life-after, as well as that burdening question of who'll be taking care of my baby, to protect him and to love him. Sigh, so easy to rasa sebak when we've become moms, we have so much responsibilities and I'm so scared I won't always be there for him. I pray that Allah grant us with good health and murah rezeki so we can bring up our sons into anak yg solleh. Amin.
ps: ill see you soon ok!
omg tu lah kan Yan. Sometimes I can't sleep thinking bout it, n bile baca cite orang yg suffer losses mmg berjurai2 air mata, thinking what if...
insyallah, doa tiap2 hari agar diberi umur yg panjang for us n our kids n ppl around us.
Btw, i'll see u soon and nak join tak playgroup on sat from 11.30 to 12.30 by Alimkids.
babe...so cute la the family photos...! kisses to the boys...and tell mummy, how come she looks youger every year?...hehehe
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